cold

I dated two guys before I met Matt. The first was when I was in high school, and I was going to marry him. Then I found out in fourth period that he had asked my good friend to the dance. Those two are married now. I dated another guy in college and was going to marry him. Then he stood on the steps to my dorm and broke up with me. My heart was broken both times, and I wondered why God said no to those guys for me. I graduated from college and applied for a teaching position in a school district that had over 200 teacher positions open. They turned me down. This week I just received my second rejection as a writer. I had imagined myself showing my parents the publication with my name in print, but I guess not this time. This weekend I was at our church Thanksgiving dinner, and I was trying to help a 7-year-old girl find her way back to her seat. She was completely turned around in the room, and all the tables looked the same to her. She started to go one way and I yelled, "cold! colder!" So she turned and started to head in the direction of her table, and I said, "warm! warmer!" I'm starting to listen for the "cold!"